Sunday Morning Blues

Hi. So this morning was a little hard. It turns out that I have a habit of looking at everything from the worst viewpoint. I was down at myself that I had eaten too much raisin bran making myself a little but too full and not satisfying my appetite. I was thinking how could I eat too much? Stupid, stupid, stupid. What I realized should have been going through my head is, hey you fed yourself this morning. You are taking care of yourself. You have not purged this morning. You have realized that your body needs food and although you have eaten a little much, that probably means that I won't be hungry for a while...and that is fine.

Another frustration was that I felt my lovely tummy looking at me...slowly growing larger. There is not a worse way to crush self confidence than to get into the shower and believe that your already not flat stomach is growing larger...you are a few pounds heavier this morning, you shameful person. However, this is not the end of my life. While I am recovering from my ED, I need to realize that my weight is going to fluctuate. That is normal and expected. What I should be focusing on instead as I step into a warm shower is that today I am going to love my body. Today I am going to nurture, appreciate, and LOVE my body. Today...is going to be a good day.

Love yourself today :)