My parents got divorced when I was in 5th grade and since then I have lived primarily with my mom. My relationship with my dad has been rocky. I have never heard the words "you are beautiful" or "I am so proud of you" or "I am so happy you are my daughter". Nope. Not from him. He loves me, I know that. He just has troubles showing love and affection and it has been really hard to say the least.
I don't know about your insurance for dietitians, but my insurance doesn't cover the majority of that expense for my treatment of my ED. Huge frustration. So I had to make the dreaded call to my dad and ask for help with covering the cost. I had not told him that I had an ED, but in order to explain why I needed the money to see a dietician, the truth came out. And what did I hear on the other end.......silence. No comment about how hard this must be for me, or how I was doing, or how he could help. He provided the money but then said that I better not call and ask for any more.
My heart is aching right now. I want his admiration, approval, and love so badly.
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