The last few days have been....hard. I posted a while ago how I couldn't even imagine going back to my ED ways, and yet here I am. It started with my Dad not really giving a crap that I had an ED and my mom making comments about my eating habits mixed with my insecurities made me go over the edge. I turned to food, which turned to purging, which turned to food....you get the idea.
I have been encouraging a lot of people lately to embrace their bodies, love themselves, and yet I am finding it a huge struggle lately. I am at the heaviest weight since losing weight last semester and it is making me really insecure. I am seeing myself as failing because I am not "skinny" anymore. As I type this I see how utterly ridiculous that is. I am worth so much more than my weight and image, and yet when I see myself heavier, thats all I see.
So, my goal for the day is to eat when I am hungry, listen to my body and respect myself no matter what my size is, because I deserve that. Lets see how this goes :)
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